seemingly... when i'm back in perth i blog more. but then it can be just due to the fact that i don't go out much since most of my close frens are back in sg. i do have some close ones here but we all have our studies and stuff to do. anyways, whenever i come back to perth, i always appear to have a lot of 'gan chu' (can't seem to find an eng word that aptly describes this feeling). i'm not sure why tho but i think it has something to do with the people (the things they do, how they lead their lifestyles) i encounter here. and when i say this, i'm refering to the more undesirable stuff.

many a times, when i do encounter someone or something that they do that leads to these 'gan chu', i often feel thankful that i'm not like them, or, that i have been prevented from acting like them (be it how my parents brought me up or advice from family and frens). i'm not saying that i'm the most perfect person in the world but at least i know i'm a better person than them. i don't think i will ever understand why they are the way they are or act the way they do or hurt others like they do. it's just like how i don't think i'll ever get used to the lifestyles of the upper echelon of society. (but that's another chicken rice story for another time)

i suppose maybe circumstances make them the way that they are and all but then i could never fathom why they still persist in that path (esp if it's destructive) when they are aware that it is one of mistakes and pain. sometimes it seems that even tho they have good pple around them, they still can't snap out of that vicious cycle. it does make one (who is always there for them) tire and give up on catching them when they fall. it gets to a point where you just don't care and can't be bothered. tho it hurts looking at ur frens falling, and knowing that u can do something to ease a little of the pain, u are way past that pt of caring and bothering. that is very sad. a frenship cannot be in this state cos it wld just cease to function. then it just becomes superficial.

this post has become something quite sombre. but it definitely doesn't reflect my current state of emotions. it's just one of those time when u just feel that u have to write out ur 'gan chu' if not once it leaves my head i can't get it back. (again, there is a limit to how much i can reveal about my 'gan chu' cos u're never sure who's reading and who u offend in these moments of, i shd say, blatantness) i'm pretty happy.. altho my change of majors is giving me a headache. apparently they didn't receive the form for the change in majors even tho i submitted it in together with the change of units. so i'll have to do the whole shin-dig (is that the correct spelling?) again. and have to trouble the student advisor, who has otherwise been kind and patient towards me.

on a side note, the emancipation of mimi is actually quite a good album. sorta comeback album for ms mariah carey, there's a couple of songs in there that are quite un-mariah. like her first single "it's like that". common's latest album be and john legend's lifted have been quite a listening pleasure. the former, rap with a bit of erm... loungy/jazzy sound to it. and the latter, quite gospel sounding.

on a second sidenote, i haven't been posting pics for quite a bit cos hello was giving me a bit of a prob but since blogger has this new feature i shall make use of it. my pride and joy (the human list as opposed to my oject list) okie that was lame.. but well it's me, i'm usually lame. he'll definitely grow up to be a heartbreaker like his sis... ahahahaha (allow some self indulgence on my part :p)